I-1. In 1989, I lived in Tokyo to go to university, and the next year, I decided not to go to university. Because I had failed all the entrance examinations.
Before taking the test, my father strongly suggested to take a examination at the department of Education. I wondered why I would be a educator but for I wanted to be a writer. I should have gone to the department of Literature. I asked my father why. But my father did not answer it and only said, ” You must take an examination at the department of Education.” I refused his recommendation and I went on my way ( I failed all examinations ). I entered the department of Life anyway.
This young stupid guy did not know how Japan was, where had been occupied with the formalism and some kind of semiotics. There is no way without getting the symbol of University Graduate ( not College Graduate ) to get along as Writer.
I had to fight with this traditional Japanese society. It might be the way of the department of life. Out of the course made the end of life in Japan. But most of Japanese did not realize that it was also wanted by ANOTHER.
Q. What did this people ( Spartans ) call themselves as ?
A. Spartiatai — x
True answer was that it was not certain until we could not hear their saying.
— Spartans supposed to call themselves as ‘ Lacedaemonian.’ But it was not certain what they were calling themselves exactly. It was different of written words from talking words.
I wrote this answer as ‘ Ladakeimon,’ Because the historical books ( Asahi and Yamakawa ) wrote it so. Asahi explained them as ‘ Lada- ( children of ) Keimon ( a god ).’ I checked the historical books after the examination, but it was the same. However, I found it changed to Lacedaemon in 1993. I felt being witched to see it.
Lada- ( lad ) became old English ( it meant ‘ youth ‘ ), all sentences about Spartans were deleted in Asahi’s ( Asahi weekly encyclopedia ). Yamakawa was changed to explain it by English somehow.
— They called themselves as Lacedaemonian ( 彼らは自らをラケダイモニアンと呼んだ ). —
In my memory, this word was Ladakeimon. I did not understand why they used English. In exact, Spartans supposed to call themselves as ‘ Lacedaemonae.’
As I confirmed it not changed in 1991, it was supposed to change within 1991 to 1993.
I checked many same books but all those were changed in once. I considered a lot of possibilities to change the published letters, but I could not find the method. — Someone could overwrite our history, or someone could move us to another parallel world, or someone could only change the published letters…
It was still my mystery.
By the way, the word of Spartiatai had been disappeared from Japanese historical educational books the after.
— When I saw this question, I wondered which I should have written. Because I knew that Spartans did call themselves as Spartans. This entrance examination was quite easy so that I finished answering within a half time of the limitation. After that, I continued thinking about this answer. Their favorite answer was wrong obviously. When I was wondering this answer, something strange voice came on my mind. It was a girl’s voice.
She said, ” It’s okay. People who made this question knew it well.”
— But I thought it good for the much safer to answer it Spartiatai. But THE VOICE said to me persistently.
” It’s okay. Write it so. They are professional.”
— As I remembered, she talked to me by real voice. Many persons who took this entrance examination could hear her voice. She might have used telepathy however, the voice did not come onto my mind. She needed making sounds to change my mind. Possibly she mind-controlled me. After I had wondered it for a half of limited time, I changed my answer. I was defeated her voice. I only thought The Girl’s voice for my mind’s voice at that time…
Then I failed to enter one university ( 2 points-lost to full points ). Only within 1 point-lost persons could enter this University at that time. The struggles of entrance examination were severe.
After many years passed, I became hearing strange VOICE in my mind. I could collect a lot of information about it. THEY said, ” You had lost 4 points exactly ( in 1993 ),” or ” You became losing even to 9 points. Why ? ( in 2000 )” — They stuck to numbers. Something strange was seemed to happen on me.
At that time, I could not realize them The Aliens at all ( I found it in 1995 ). These Aliens looked quite strange so that I could not find them friendly or not. They took any actions by following strange rules. Their policy was different from us obviously. And they usually used The Girls for taking actions. Their preceding agents were just girls or the supposed women. Above the girl was supposed one of them. She was supposed a faceless computer unit, so I did not name her. I only called her ‘ The Girl.’ She was supposed an agent of their central computing system ( The System ).
As my writing rule, I named them by following their words as possible. These aliens held a lot of enemies on, so I could catch their advice. Their political opponents seemed to keep the observational attitude in principle. As I was following their words, there was the possibility of that I misunderstood The Earth people for The Aliens. Some of them were only supposed to mind-control by THEM.
I said sorry for my misunderstanding in advance. But their political opponents said that, ” THEY hid the instruments in their heads. But these were not seen ( in 1995 ).”
They only looked strange apparently.
I-2. That’s aside. To become a writer, I read many books and watched movies. But my Department of Life was full of mystery.
I started from finding my room to write a book. In May 1990, I find a cheapest room in Tokyo, however, this real estate agent ( female ) said something little strange. ” I don’t recommend living here.” — I asked her for the reason, but she did not answer.
Whether ghosts lived in this room or murder was happened on this room…, but it sounded good for me. It could be get amazing story. I decided to live here. Although she continued shouting ” Don’t live there.” It might be the beginning of my failure because it was a room of The Attic Attack.
My new room was quite clean which had a nice bathroom and a toilet. There is no ghost, that was only my regret. I could not feel any human existence. It was quite nice circumstance to write. In this room, I started writing, reading, and watching a movie. I would seem to get a nice idea in here. But I could not find someone was monitoring me in here. They need A STORY ( ネタ ; NETA ) …
— Anyway, I started writing. When I read a historical book, I found the emphasized words of ” History begins at Sumer.” Those words looked brilliant for me. I memorized the phrase. It was not certain why it had looked so.
I could have found many brilliant words like this the after. Not only words looked brilliant, but also some scenes of movies looked brilliant. Sometimes the deep impression was come from after. I decided to call it ‘ emphasized.’ — Maybe someone supposed to tell something. To tell the truth or to confuse me. My Department of Life was almost for searching these reasons. I fell into deep mysteries the more to see it. It was just only pieces of such informations had stuck on my memories. But my flexible mind could be accepted anything. I could memorized all these as themselves.
To tell the truth, the information of above phrase was supposed to come from the future. Because some early-old man said so. He said after, ” We succeeded to do it ( in 1995 ).” — I felt some time paradox but I could not have any confidence about it. Something mystery had gone on without my notice.
— Anyway, I decided to call him as Haraher ( ハラヘル ( 腹減る )：hungry ). Because I heard someone talked in the air after ( in 2017 ), ” All will become poor in his world.”
By the way, as the writing method, the special action to use some kind of telepathy was described by capitalized letters. THE VOICE, TALK, USE, HEAR and etc. People in Tokyo had already accepted this unscientific matters as unnatural things. They dealt it with Taboo. They never investigate on this unnatural phenomenon in science. It was supposed that some powerful men considered it good for their domination to let it be in taboo. It was the beginning of tragedy the after.
And I decided to color letters on ‘ blue ‘ that I could see it with my eyes, and color letters on ‘ purple ‘ that it was supposed to TALK in the air by somebody, and color letters as nothing that it was supposed to TALK in the air by unknown people ( THEM ). The reason of making unknown TALK with non-color was just quick to write. There were so many unknown TALK in my life.
I-3. After that, I bought a word processor to write my story in June 1990. I bought the cheapest word processor which had a brown tube. There were a lot of word processors which had a monochrome LCD, but those were expensive. And they were hard to watch than brown tube monitor’s. I bought it without hesitation.
Then I started writing. But I had to start writing from understanding how to use a word processor. It was hard for this mechanical amateur but I learned it little by little by myself. I had to spend time for a month and it was passed for a few months to good at using it.
While I fought with this cheap computer, I heard some strange voices in front of my room. The house in front of my room was also an apartment, I always could see the comings and going of people from my room’s window. But I could not see any people to enter in front of my room, instead, some faint voices were reached to my ears. It was not certain who lived there, but the voice was usually of woman.
The faint voice said, ” He has reached to the mental disorder.”
— Other voices were seemed to argue with her voice, however, I could not understand what they were talking. They seemed to regard me as a kind of paranoia. If they saw my life, it was natural to think so because I always watch the same videos for BGM when I wrote my story. The other time while I did not write, I only read books. I read historical books for my habit. It must have looked boring for other people if they monitored me.
The faint female voice also said, ” We need it easier to understand.”
— I could not understand what she said. But soon I realized that I sweated or my hands were trembling. And I felt high and depressed alternatively. In the end of month, I became depressed, and in the middle of month, I became high. Of course, my hands were shaking at this time. And I sweated unnaturally but I thought it for the heat of Summer.
When I depressed, my mother often telephoned me. I wondered why my mother call me when I was bad. My voice tones became rough. We gradually took a quarrel on the telephone. From the front of my room, something confidence was reached to me. — I decided to buy TV game to relieve my stress.
In September 1990, a phone was ringing. I was under the depression so that I considered how I said back to my mother. But it was a friend of my high school. It was an invitation of a party in a restaurant. I joined it willingly.
I went to this party, then I saw a strange man who looked like The Industry people actually ( This man was supposed a prop clerk on TV — It was my HEARD the after in 1995 ). He glanced at me and said to his fellow, ” It’s for his fault ( あいつのせいだ：Aitsu-no-sei-da ).”
— I could not understand what he said at first, him and his fellow looked my face repeatedly, that was supposed to tell me. Exactly, I SAW this saying after in 1995, undoubtedly he said to me. I got creepy.
And it was the beginning of my bullied life actually.
I-4. In Winter 1990, I started writing to get a job. I had already become using a word processor firmly.
One day, suddenly a strange woman had revealed on my mind. But it was unclear who she was. It was only clear she was colored by red in the dark. She said something but I could not understand what she said. She would try to handle with something like console.
— And when my brain was vibrated a little like that a person would be shocked.
” What are you doing ? ” — My head was covered by another woman’s voice, and the sound was reached to my mind with my cranial bones was shook. I could not do anything a while. The former woman looked back in the latter woman’s voice and vanished.
— It was my first encountering with THEM.
I could not understand what was happened. I only wondered some kind of delusion or wild fancy. After years passed, I could know about them ( in 1944, 2020 ). The former woman was called The Ahora ( アホら：the fools ) and the latter woman was called Buredoo ( 無令洞：Burei Cave, or Cave of Zero Order ). These were not my naming but THEY said so. Ahora was often called ‘ Roobaa ( ロバ：donky ) ‘ by others ( the other intelligent lives ). And Buredoo introduced herself as Kuweerii ( query ? ) in 2020. But I used these names for them. These words were supposed to explain them better.
— Anyway, I decided to call them and their fellows and all who could not be identified firmly as ‘ THEM.’ They were not necessarily The Aliens. It was supposed that some of them who were only mind-controlled by The Aliens. Or just an avatar for THEM.
They Live ( 1988 ) by John Carpenter, main actors and actress ; Roddy Piper, Keith David, Meg Foster
A movie which Aliens are humanized by special electric waves. I got an idea from this movie.
In this story, I called people who acted something strange as THEM. Their characteristic behaviors were that they could use something telepathy. TALK and USE were. THEY looked special than ordinary persons. And THEY were special for sticking to USE or TALK. I could not find whether they were aliens or not even for now. But it was certain that THEY had different culture from us.
There were both possibility of THEY were the extraterrestrials or not. THEY could TALK Japanese frequently. THEY might have learned this difficult language, or THEY might be just the past Japanese. In exact, THEY told there were a lot of Japan the after. I could not understand the mean immediately.
Anyway, I decided to call such Japanese as ‘ intra-terrestrials.’ THEY behaved as like friend, but THEY did not show THEIR aggressive thought so soon.
In front of my room, the voice of woman still reached to me. But it was different from the before. Her voice was reached to me as like a hypnotical suggestion.
The woman’s voice said, ” It needs the mental treatment for him.”
— Then I often could see some woman’s face faintly in the back of mind. It was quite unscientific which I had ever seen. I never heard to be there such a treatment in Japan. I could not find what I should have done. It was seemed to end as wild fancy with laughing if I claimed. Something wrong was carried out in Tokyo informally.
To tell the truth, I could know this behind the scene after. THEY regarded me as becoming a mental disorder, and reported it to psychiatrists. Most of psychiatrists denied it but a famous psychiatrist agreed it to watch me. He was an authority of crime psychiatry. He said, ” He is not mental disorder, but continue watching him.” — The above woman reported him for that I was the burnout syndrome for failing of University Examination, he seemed to say so. Her report told that I did not do anything and spent a life in vain. So he ordered her to treat me. The effect was this treatment. She was a magician.
Anyway, I decided to call this faint woman’s voice as ‘ Dalk ( Dalk-2 ).’ Because I could hear her voice after ( 1993 ) which voice was said, ” I’m Jeanne d’Arc.” Joan of Arc was called ‘ Jannu Daruku ‘ in Japanese. She had a lot of similar persons, and this Joan of Arc was one of them. Her true name was supposed ‘ Gootou ( 後島：rear island ).’
And I decided to call the woman’s face whom I watched as ‘ Yuu.’ Because THEY called her as ‘ Omai.’ It was supposed to mean ‘ you.’ It was one dialect of the word ‘ you ’ in Japan. It had a possibility of Tahitian name but it was a man. She offended the privacy with no permission. But she often called herself as ‘ me.’
There supposed to have some kind of psychiatrist in their back, I could hear the voice that he insisted on I was mad at that time the after ( 1993 ). Tokyo’s psychiatrist seemed to do the mental treatment with no permission. He said, ” We thought it okay to do social examination at that time ( 1993, 2018 ).” — Anyway, I decided to call him ‘ Myura-0.’ It was not from THEM but I regarded him as one of THEM.
I reminded about Herman Hesse. I might have sent for kinds of sanatorium like him. THEY said about it with laughing after ( 1994 ), ” Author is the creature to sent for like that place.” — THEY wanted my death beneath the wheel. It was extremely out of fashion.
I-5. In the late 1990, I applied an recruitment of a male game company. I waited for this response with playing TV games. Although I lived in Tokyo to become a writer, gradually I often spent time to play TV games. To read books or watch the videos, the inspiration of A STORY could not be brought to me easily. My ordinary life was almost spent for playing TV games.
When I was playing TV games, something strange VOICE was thrown to me.
THE VOICE said, ” You are the Rutsu.” — Rutsu was a character on my TV game. In exact, Rutsu was Japanese translation of Ruth in The Holy Bible.
It was come from in front of my room. I could not find the reason. It was a mystery even now.
— Anyway, I decided to call HIM as Myura-1. Because THEY said so. In exact, THEY said that he was just a person who was distinguished with Myura-0. He tried to become Rei people ( 零人 ( Rei-nin ) or 丸い人 ( Marui-bito )：0-people ), however, his original seemed to come from A-Country.
The numbering method of character’s names in this story was followed by the method of Rei people. It was started from ZERO ( Myura-0, Dalk-1, Tambar-2, Tambar-4, etc. ). In exact, it was supposed that the two ( -2 ) was meant the 2nd intelligent life ( Rei people ), however, The One ( -1 ) was not meant the 1st intelligent life. They were supposed the 19th intelligent life actually. There is not The Three ( -3 ) persons in THEIR world, and The Four supposed to mean both of the 7th and 8th intelligent lives. There rarely could be found The Five ( -5 ) and more. Sometimes Tambar-2 was called The Five only. It was for Tambar-2 had interfered to the fifth intelligent life ( C-Country ). She became the electrical goddess in C-Country. ( → The Orders of Intelligent lives )
This counting method was quite complicated by the reason of THEY even had some confusion to use. But I used it as it was because it was supposed to be good for understanding their knowledge. And it was supposed the less mistakes by following their saying.
By the way, The One and The Two were supposed The Death Numbers which Rei people had destroyed the society completely. Rei people did not seem to allow to invade other planets directly, such intelligent lives were supposed to cause self-extinction by them. It was their pre-treatment.
There was not The Three but there was The Four. It was a mystery at THEIR TALKS. THEY called D-Country for The Four. THEY dealt such numbered intelligent lives with great intelligent lives. But in fact, The Three had not only existed yet, The Four was Chili people supposedly. Haraher told that they had revealed suddenly ( 2021 ). It was supposed that some intelligent life who showed invasional attitude would time-jumped to Rei’s home galaxy from the future.
I called such invasional intelligent-lives as The Species. I got this idea from the same title in the Hollywood movie. Because THEY often showed the sexual depravity. THEY sometimes considered to give birth to a half between THEM and The Earth people. Some of THEM said, ” We had damned, but my children possibly can get along well…. ( 1995 )” THEY were seemed to drive into a dead-end as intelligent life.
Sometimes I called THEM as The Species. THEIR desires were supposed to put on invasion. But for The System supposed to inhibit doing a war, Most of THEIR invasion were seemed to end within personal. The System was likely wasting time, it was pleased to see its agents would make events. But we had to pay attention for THEIR events. Because THEY could make wars and disasters as The Events. THEY only inhibited making wars and disasters directly. THEY could do anything by shifting the responsibility. Therefore, THEIR constitutions showed irresponsibility.
THEIR figures were quite similar to The Earth people, nothing was changed without their behaviors. THEIR characteristic behaviors were below.
- The saying was different from us. ( ex. THEY said that I was The Rutsu. )
- Sometimes said the wrong phrase. ( ex. THEY said Agency of Justice. It was not existed in Japan. )
- Showed confusing timelines. ( ex. THEY said I made a rebel in 1993. But I made a rebel in 2016. )
- Stuck to USE and TALK. ( THEY never said it psychokinesis or telepathy. )
- Stuck to numbers. ( THEY loved a game of solving numbers. )
- preferred verbal play ( and showed some kind of semiotics ).
- Showed the sexual depravity. ( THEY did not know the limitation. )
- Tended to shift the responsibility. ( It was as like an excuse of criminal. )
— The love for numbering question was quite special on THEIR behaviors. Nothing to say, there was no need to understand this true answer. No one could know the truth except for we could become surveying all the past intelligent lives. It meant for that we had to get the ability to time-jump to the past world somewhere and somewhen they had lived. But it was almost impossible for us.
There was no choice without we had to rush into wild fancy to know their world.
By the way, I could not realize such world and THEIR behaviors, I only challenged to describe my world. But I did not make any stories in this year, I only made a map to describe my world. It was a fantasy world where knights and dragons had lived. I raised it on my room’s wall. It was larger than the wall. My stories were in this map.