V-1. The before in 1992, when was the after I was shot , I HEARD the Nazi cartoonist had a secret conversation with something Japanese Media …
” I did not go there. I’m busy. The guy was bad… He knew it a little… “
— The guy was supposed the yellow car’s owner, and ‘ he ‘ was supposed his friend. They seemed to argue with the treatments about involved persons. But the yellow car’s owner was already dead. They agreed with this was only the accident and the responsibility owed on Asahi.
Then I saw Kanji’s saying, ” Asahi was wrong.”
In exact, Asahi Newspaper supposed to agree with keeping The Taboo, but all Japanese Media did not decide the way of treatments to whom broke The Taboo. Asahi was just one of them. But Media person who did this secret conversation pretended for investigation and tried to destroy the evidence. He reported it that the yellow car’s owner was only bad and it was just an accident by whom misunderstood the treatment of breaking The Taboo. He INTRODUCED himself as Asahi the after. He looked down on ordinary people like me. He was supposed one of Shiganai’s party members.
— Anyway, I called him ‘ The Wide-face.’ Because his face looked wide. He supposed to join the secret conversation before I was shot, his sayings always had something another. He was supposed to come from D-Country. In D-Country, the assassination by THE GAME was seemed their fashion. But for D-Country was seemed to occupy by G-Country, he was an agent from the second Species.
Nothing to say, it was not certain, but he could TALK. And he reached to the extreme opinion easily. The difference from our common sense had to be kept in mind at least.
To tell the more, People in G-Country seemed to have small face but D-Country seemed to have wide face. Both had well-built body. In the point of doing the manhunt, they were same.
The manhunt was called ‘ murder game ‘ by THEM. I only called it ‘ THE GAME.’ For hiding the assassination of political opponents, G-country seemed to establish a manhunt as like kinds of game. It was imported to D-Country. THEY explained it a gift for bad country. D-Country was exterminated by this gift. Because most people lose minds to live. D-Country became The Android society.
Maybe to see The Taboo, THEY must have decided to give us ‘ The Gift.’ Nothing to say, it was not also certain but THEY often said, ” Japan was bad.” — It meant that we should have found the illness of Japan.
I found it easily — the ghosts of militarism, the ghosts of national police, the excitement of the economic bubble, the competitions of audience rate on TV and The Taboo, etc. THEY said it any ( or all ).
THEY maybe tested us. To inject THEIR poison, THEY would see how Japanese suffered in pain.
Because The Wide-face said that Asahi was bad, Asahi bashed Japanese TV to escape from the responsibility, then Japanese TV bashed The HJ by the reason of they could TALK. After then, Japanese TV succeeded to pull them out in 1993. The HJ often TALKED ” Asahi was bad ” or ” It’s wrong of he’s not working ” so that they could not escape from the explanation.
At first, The HJ excused, ” He’s Nazi.” — They wanted to say that I was bad for drawing a Nazi tank in a magazine. But they admitted it wrong, then they tried to make a girlfriend for me. It was Nakatra the kissing man. It was a fantasy why they tried to make a girlfriend to a lonely man like me instead of friends. They could not explain it well.
Japanese TV questioned it severely, then The HJ mentioned it in short. ” We think it okay only to show the madness of whom loved Nazis.” — It might have been their self-performance of that somebody blackmailed to me and telephoned me by whom introduced himself as Asahi Newspaper, however, they denied them both. They said that they did not know who did. But Asahi Newspaper made an article for it. They also denied for what they shot me.
They only believed Asahi was bad ( but the mass media who bashed them was TBS ). They guessed the blackmailer to me was come from Asahi Newspaper ( it was wrong ).
The situation became complicated because THEY started TALKING. To be accused The HJ, somehow THEY started TALKING. I could SEE THEIR TALKING in the hazy delusional sight. I could not find what THEY are TALKING. THEY spread something to TALK.
Some of THEM told me the words with the vision. It was that a little fat man did TALK in a dark-purple background. He said, ” The guy made a rebel.” — Me ?ļ¼ But he did not mention about whom was. Japanese TV could not also find what he wanted to say, so they ignored it. But THEY continued TALKING something. The more to listen, the more this incident went into a labyrinth. So Japanese TV only asked for the reason why they bashed me only for drawing Nazi tank.
At this time, Alii often tried to emphasize the TV news as that was a self-performance. The news which she emphasized did not look so, but gradually there happened something self-performance. TV announcers became using this word in many times. It was supposed the beginning of THEIR theatrical crimes.
THEY also emphasized the TV show which reported the murders of dog lovers ( 1993 ). Alii also tried to say it the self-performance but soon she vanished. She was so noisy that someone seemed to delete her data. Her noisy VOICE was ended then, but the other of THEM revealed on my mind, and said to see the list of killed persons, ” They are.”ć
— I could not find what THEY were talking ( I could not find it even for now ). It was supposed the more important for that the muscle relaxants were used for murders. But THEY did not explain it many. The most biggest problem was that the looseness to manage muscle relaxants in Japan. Unless I was injected it, I supposed to survive.
V-2. Although I could survive, the people around me caused the mass hysteria. When I went out of my home, suddenly the ambulance car was driving with siren. It was not one day or two days but almost everyday. It was obviously strange. The strange was not likely Japanese police only ( in exact, a strange man called the ambulance when I was out or went back to my town ).
I could see this ambulance actually. In the passenger seat, I could see a similar person to Nakatra. He was surprised a little to see me. If I was sent to it, I would inject the muscle relaxants. But there was no car to attack me, nor thug to attack me. Only the sirens sounded through the town. I became creepy.
I decided to move my house. Japanese police never told me the truth, Japanese Media had no duty to tell ( But I got it from Japanese Media actually ), so that I could not have any means to claim or sue. There was no way except for self-defense. Japanese police had still suspected it of their relative crime, and even they were standing on the concealment. They did not move apparently. They thought it okay only to be told by the mass media. But the relative crime was also on Japanese Media.
I telephoned to my father for the support of money. I prepared many words to explain, but my father allowed it that I only said, ” I’ll be killed as it is ! ” — My father also had something strange, but in this time, it was useful to explain. I could move to a concrete building house by one phrase. My new house was made firmly so that I did not hear the noisy steps of upstairs. I could not even hear the voice of next person. It was very good but it was a little expensive to live. I had to borrow the money to my parents. I could not get along by myself again.
When I left for my old house, I decided to investigate my word processor. As I decided to buy a computer, it became needless. I took the cover of my word processor off, and tried to find eavesdroppers on mother board. Nothing was found on it. Then I took the brown tube monitor off, I broke it by hammer after I rapped it with towels. But it was just ended only to break the glass. Nothing was found…
Englishman in New York ( 1987 ) by Sting
It was very impressive MV of that the sax player looked cool. I could cry to watch this MV because I lost my grandmother in 1991. She was pleased with my getting a writing job to say that ” Like father, like son.” — I could know it that my father once wanted to become a writer before becoming an archaeologist. It might be good for she was dead before I quit a writing job. She could die with dreaming the same of her son’s. I did remind my grandmother whenever I watched this MV. I always considered about what this old woman thought for.
By the way, the lyrics of this song was my motto — ‘ Takes more than combat gear to make a man. Takes more than a license for a gun. Confront your enemies, avoid them when you can. A gentleman will walk but never run.’ — A candle was brighter than the sun in the night. We should have kept it in mind. How weak the power was, it could become the strongest in some cases. Be yourself no matter what they say.
In the hand, Japanese journalism found Nakatra and accused him for stalking. He explained how dangerous I was, no one agreed with it. He came to see me on the way to my home in the train, but he did not apologize or say something. He only watched me in silence. Supposed his co-worker only said to him, ” What you did was this…”
Because they did not talk to me directly, I could not do anything. I spent time nothing to do every day. Just only I went to a working place and went back to my new house. Something was interrupted to tell me. Even Japanese journalism could not talk to me. Nothing to say, The Taboo had interrupted us for cooperation. It would cause the worst situation the after.
V-3. In my part time job, my co-worker said that I molested somebody. I could appreciate that the bad rumor for me was true at this time. It was within a delusion until this time. Japanese Media ( The Industry ) was so clever that they only acted within a delusion. It was for leaving no evidence. It made them bullying freely.
— I already knew their mad operation, the future of this co-worker would supposed to go bad. The oppressors disliked not only to be against but also to cooperate. They only allowed to ignore the target. Because they would try to be driven him into suicide for loneliness.
My letter sent to journalism effected well, so that they could not kill me directly. Therefore, they had to choose the different operation. It was the operation of driven into suicide. If Japanese Media found somebody talked with me, The Industry came to say that, ” Never talk with him ! ” — If not stop talking, the life was not promised. I had to live alone in this huge city.
But there was a challenger on where was in the worst country. He questioned me for the eavesdropping by Japanese Media. He knew it well so that I answered, ” Not only Japanese Media but also Japanese police are eavesdropping and tried to kill me…”
” Stop ! Stop ! ” He refused my answer on the way.
His future must have been ended as bad. But I could HEAR his biological reaction still.
In the delusion, somebodies were excited one-sidedly. One of them said, ” The guy always made a rebel.”
— me ?? — I wondered. I claimed to Japanese Media, but I never thought about kinds of revolution. This man suddenly revealed on dark-purple-colored background in our minds, and he did TALK as anyone could HEAR. He did not criticize by the name however, he wanted to say about me.
To HEAR that, Japanese TV found him. They thought him one of The HJ but he was not them. He was just a military freak. — Anyway, I called him as ‘ Van.’ Because THEY said so. The Holm explained his identification as, ” He was an author, who created very good. But…”